THE SQUEEZE

June 15th, 2018

Pushing into new territory is fraught with uncertainty.  We venture into new territory on a guess, hopefully with curiosity, maybe determination.

The longer uncertainty remains as the reigning emotion, the harder it is to push forward.

The farther we push forward, the closer we get to a solution. 

Our path towards a goal is squeezed ever tighter between these two facts: Between rising doubt and a nearing solution.

The experience of this squeeze is an emotion: a fear.

If we can relax, accept the fear, and thoughtfully move forward, no goal is out of reach.

ARCHITECT

June 14th, 2018

It is easy to conclude that we are a product of our surroundings.

Whether we like it or not

We are the sole architect of our own experience.

From this statement it is easy to fall into this bad pseudo-logic trap:  that your undesirable situation is a product of your own making. 

But our situation and our experience of that situation are not the same thing.

Besides, such a negative conclusion is an unproductive dead-end.

Like many finer details in language, it is one side of the architect coin.  The other side is this: no matter what the situation is, we have the potential and ability to change it.

We cannot remake it wholesale in a moment.  Like anything it takes time, just like the current situation took much time to develop.

The place to start is our experience of our situation.

We may not be the sole architect of our situation – but we are the sole architect of how we experience that situation.

The first and most important rebuilding that must take place has nothing to do with the outside world (i.e. the world we see, touch, smell, hear – our situation).  The first and most important rebuilding must be within our mind. 

If we can change our idea about our surroundings.   See our situation and our surroundings as mutable, then we can become again like the little kid with a box full of Legos, or a jar full of play-dough.

This is an idea that we may build in our mind to change our experience of our situation. 

If we can change our experience of our situation.

We can respond to our situation differently.

We can see what affect our new response has on our situation.

We can fine-tune our response.

And in so doing. . .

fine-tune the changes of our situation.

There are many excuses paraded as iron-clad reasons that roll out on the tongue of certainty.  But nothing is for certain.  Any ‘reason’ is a concept that is produced, replicated and ‘believed’ by the brain.  Many people point to the brain and claim some sort of certainty about it’s chemical or structural make-up.  But this in itself is an idea – a concept.   One that we only have a very hazy understanding of.  Of all the things we have studied and learned as a species, our own brain still remains one of the most mysterious machines.  To claim some sort of certainty about it is unwise. 

To know any given subject requires the hard-won* ability to manipulate all possible parts.  Like a chess master who can manipulate a game, or a mathematician who can manipulate formulas in order to discover something new.  Or a master musician who can discover something never before heard but loved by many.  Few such masters would claim certainty about their field in such a limiting way as people claim certainties about their own brains.  Just as masters discover through the manipulation of parts they understand, might we borrow practice and manipulate what parts of our brain we can. . . even if we don’t fully understand such parts?

Regardless,

The very act of making a claim is building an experience of one’s situation.

If we can PAUSE.  If we can doubt our own certainty.  If we can entertain radical ideas that might aid us.  What’s to lose?  The only thing that can be lost is a conceptual certainty – a limiting one at that.

If we can commit to these simple steps: doubting our certainty, fostering curiosity, taking action. . .

We can embody our role as

The architect.

*Just being alive does not mean we automatically learn how our own personal brain functions, simply because we think some and operate in the world in some capacity.  That ‘hard-won ability to manipulate parts’ is difficult to achieve and requires constant prodding of our own personal brains in order to learn about it and change it.

FREQUENCY

June 13th, 2018

We cannot do all our breathing on Sunday and expect we’ll be set for the week.

But we apply this sort of thinking to other aspects of our life.

What has a better effect:

Working out once a week for 7 hours     OR working out 1 hour every day.

Eating a really healthy diet once a week  OR  switching one very nutritious meal every day/

Meditating for an hour and 20 minutes once a week OR  meditating 20 minutes a day?

Breathing is a constant non-negotiable practice.  The consistency and frequency of breathing are both really really high.  Ignore either of these variables about breathing, and… well… you die.

We all have activities and habits that we wish were more engrained, more effective and easier to carry out.

Have we asked what sort of consistency and frequency is optimal for each of these habits and activities?

Is our fitness plan really doing much good if it’s got high consistency but low frequency?  Once a week just isn’t enough.  The brain needs a daily dose of endorphins.

Does that one good day of nutrition do much good if the other 6 are crap?  Many argue that at minimum, it needs to be the other way around: 6 days of healthy eating and one cheat day.  Consistency, and higher frequency.

Meditation?  Can’t say.  Perhaps one single long meditation a week would have comparable effects as daily meditations? 

The point is that such activities and habits that we benefit from exist on a spectrum of consistency and frequency.  Some require very high frequency and consistency.  I.E. breathing.  Whereas others are not so needy of our time. 

Realizing that each practice has some mysterious optimal frequency is the first step.

The second step is experimenting:

 Trying different frequencies for consistently long enough periods to be able to note differences in effect.

And be wary of what works for others.  Each person has their own frequency requirement for any given activity or practice that might benefit.  And that magical metric probably changes over time.

But like anything else:

best to just find out for one’s self.

THE TURTLE AND THE CAT

June 12th, 2018

It’s easy to envision the turtle on it’s back, legs flailing, potentially doomed.

Often it can feel as though a mindset has grown such a kind of inconvenient shell that is bound to betray it’s original purpose of protection and truly leave us feeling like we’re fucked.

Sometimes solving a problem only makes things worse.

The problem might be thinking there’s a problem in the first place: trying to solve a problem that doesn’t exist simply creates. . . problems.

What is so precious in our thoughts and beliefs that needs such protection?  If a thought or belief, or set of beliefs must be harbored from injury, is it so valuable?  Should not it work the other way around?  Should not thoughts and beliefs have the durability that they enable us to take wiser action?  Would it be better idea to have beliefs that are more akin to the variability of events?  Beliefs that are flexible, agile and can react swiftly to some sudden and unexpected turn of tide?

Cats always land on their feet.  It’s easy to envision the way a cat stretches and flexes so quickly in the air to reorient itself.  It needs no shell since it can rely on it’s swift flexibility and agility to deal with circumstance as it arises.  It does not prematurely anticipate what kind of circumstance may arise and grow a cumbersome shell in hasty anticipation.

Different animals for different environments perhaps.

But which has achieved more freedom?

The one that relies on the kindness of motorists to stop and wait while it slogs from one bog to the next, bogged down by it’s own cumbersome protection?

Or the other which has domesticated all mankind and made the internet a shrine of it’s divinity.

COMPASS

June 11th, 2018

What path must we take to gain a greater sense of fulfillment in life?

What is the indicator that points, and says: this thing, this way, that’s the right direction.

How do we suss out all the internal noise of thoughts and feelings to figure out which way we should go, which goal we should pursue, which path to take?

The answer is fear.

What ever dreams we have that inspire a sense of fear when we actually give some thought to the first step towards that dream.  This fear is our compass.

Like approaching a crush in highschool.

Like walking up on stage to begin the audition.

These experiences are fraught with fear and trepidation.

What is most important to realize about this odd compass is that top performers are not devoid of fear.  Top performers experience the emotion of fear just like everyone else.  The difference is the way top performers react to fear.  Top performers use the fear.  Like a compass, to direct and sharpen resolve.

The root of this fear is an uncertainty about the outcome of our actions.

Will we succeed?

Will we stumble, fall and embarrass ourselves?

Perhaps.

And when we do stumble, and when they laugh, that fear only grows larger.

To submit to fear is to misunderstand.

The fear grows larger like a dare.

I dare you to do it.

I dare you to try again.

I double-dare you.

We intuit the usefulness of fear socially in this context.  Somehow in a social context, fear via daring someone, is motivating.

But in the privacy of our own mind, the usefulness of fear is lost. 

We cripple ourselves instead of using fear properly as an agent of motivation.

If we can pause. If we can be mindful of the fear.  Recognize the fear is not actually connected to anything truly dangerous.  Then we can use that fear.

We can choose to embody that fear.  Like a best friend who knows you want to make the jump.  Who knows you will make the jump.

We can embody the fear and usurp it’s rhetoric against ourselves.

When we are about to try.  About to attempt.  About to take a chance.

And fear rises to meet us.

We can recognize it as our compass, as a responsibility.  Take it’s cue as our turn to dare and taunt the angels of our weaker selves.

Come on scaredy cat, I dare you.

I double-dare you.