A LUCILIUS PARABLE: LITTLE DOMINO

October 11th, 2020

This episode is dedicated to Sam McRoberts, a specialist in SEO who regularly posts on Twitter about simulation theory.  Connect with him as Sam_Antics 

Lucilius bore a proud and content smile as he hunched over the computer screen, watching with rapt attention.  He’d accidentally discovered the most intoxicating form of entertainment conceivable to man.  He got up from his computer and walked the short few steps to the galley, as he liked to refer to it, an idiosyncrasy of his days at sea when he would get up early to help the cook.  The bunker was a tight space, but arranged quite nicely so that Lucilius never felt cramped.  He’d built the bunker years and years ago during an overly paranoid time in his life when he was beset with a drive to be abundantly cautious.  Later he found it to be quite a lovely place when he wanted solitude, and it had served him very well when he’d gotten into crypto mining.  That was one hobby that had worked out particularly well for Lucilius and was what now allowed him to spend the last few years tapping away at his computer, running his experiment, getting weekly automated deliveries of food and whatever other knickknack caught his eye during the week.

He pasted the two pieces of bread together, the diced pickle and mayo, cold bacon and tomato melding together and took an oversized bite.  He was already leaning forward as he sat down again at his desk.

On the screen was the image of a man with a rapt tension in his eyes as he too stared at his computer, and within that screen, both Lucilius and he watched on that computer the image of a third man who was in a laboratory in the final stages of concocting a new type of organism.

After Lucilius had cashed in his crypto efforts and diversified some of its fungibility, he’d built a new set up and had plied efforts to the whim of his curiosity that had since been bent upon the idea of making a simulation.  He’d succeeded and had sped up the simulation until humans had evolved and one day while perusing the vast world that he’d created, he found someone within the simulation who had done the exact same thing.  It was this second, nested simulation that they were both watching, the middle man, of course oblivious to the fact that he himself was being watched and had a companion in his own audience.  

The man who was watching along with Lucilius got up and stepped away from the frame for a moment and returned with a sandwich and the two chomped away as the scientist on the smaller screen grew very still as the final part of his experiment came to fruition.  With a sudden burst the man stood back, a contorted piece of laughter and disbelief erupting from him.  

Yes!,  He yelled, raising his fists to the sky.  

Then he tapped the enter key on his computer and a short distance away an advanced 3D printer sprang to life.  The scientist scurried over to it and hunched over, and before he’d even settled to watch the printer was done.  The scientist stood back up, suddenly confused.  

Hm, I thought… he said out-loud.  I thought I set it to a magnified size…

The scientist leaned in and looked at the spot where the printer had touched the printing plate and touched it himself.  He looked at his finger to see if there was anything there.  Confused further he went back to his computer.  He stared at the data on the screen for a moment and then leaned back, his confusion growing with connection, his expression becoming troubled.

No… he said softly.  Then as though suddenly sensing something he looked around, frantically, then down at his hand which he held up before his own face.

Oh no… no no!  He yelled.  Lucilius and his voyeur companion leaned in to see what was going on.  The scientist was looking at the finger that he’d used to touch the printing plate.  The tip of the finger was beginning to disappear, and where one might imagine blood and bone and muscle the scientists was gazing into a a void like a prism, as though light were degenerating along the lines of replicating mirrors.

As he brought the dissolving finger closer to his face the scientist muttered in horror: What the..

But he brought the growing opening too close to his face, and screamed.  The prismatic opening had touched his face and had now begun to grow there too, and the man was disappearing faster and faster at each moment.  Both Lucilius and his counterpart sat wide-eyed, in disbelief, their mindless chewing of sandwiches growing rapid with the unfolding drama.  

The strange shades of collapsing light spread to the table and floor and then it began seemed to crawl upon the other side of the screen just before it went dark.

Lucilius’ counterpart watching the drama leaned back.  

What the… he spoke lightly as he pressed a combination shortcut on his keyboard to revive his computer.  But before he could try his computer again, his attention was suddenly drawn to a corner of the room where a 3D printer had suddenly stirred to action.

Lucilius watched the man in the screen look bewildered, and as if having just forgotten everything he’d just seen he walked over to the printer which had already finished it’s operation.  Lucilius saw the man lean in close and after a few quiet moments the man sprang back, screaming watching the side of his hand crumble to the prismatic opening.  The man stumbled around, screaming, bumping into his desk and falling against the wall and at each touch, the deformation of space and light stuck and spread.  Within moments Lucilius’ screen had gone dark, and he leaned back in wide-eyes wonder.  He took the last bite of his sandwich and chewed slowly as he reflected of the experiment of years, now come to such an unexpected and abrupt end.  He smiled with a quiet and muffled chuckle.  It was such a strange world - a set of worlds really, that he’d been so invested in for years.  He’d tinker with the computer tomorrow to figure out how it had crashed and get it running again.  He yawned, suddenly realizing how tired he was, wondering how long he’d been awake, and just as the comfortable breath was leaving him with a cozy sense of the evening now spent, the sound of electric motors and precision wheels on articulating tracks sprang to life.  A cold slithering dread slipped through Lucilius’ warm sense of comfort as he slowly turned to look at the printer in the corner of his bunker, suddenly operational.

EFFORTFUL FULFILLMENT

October 10th, 2020

Some times every stepping stone is an obstacle.  Each one reveals the next and the opportunity is ripe for frustration, even anger, and of course, just giving up.  Everyone knows what it’s like to finally get to the end of that string of problems and finally declare victory.  

But where is real victory?  Simply being ‘done’ after a big painful slog may be our first experience of victory, but in the long run this isn’t sustainable from an emotional standpoint.  If every task and goal we undertake is pure misery and frustration for 99% of the going, is that last moment of achievement really worth it?  And if not, does that make it less likely we’ll take on grander schemes in the future?

A sustainable fulfillment isn’t in that single final moment when it’s over and the champagne gets popped.  The best living requires building the skills that allow an individual to come up against obstacles and surmount them with an emotional smoothness.  Frustration is an abrupt, extreme and exhausting experience.  If the emotional gunshot of frustration can be sidestepped, not only do we make headway on the next obstacle without the huff & puff delay of frustration, but we do so more efficiently, with an even tempered perspective.

The real victory is when our process takes on the character of a sustained and even effort, like the inertia of a slowly moving freight train - a force that is in no rush but which cannot be stopped.  Juxtapose this with the usual experience of frustration slamming our progress to a stop, the time spent standing still to regain composure, the confusion that ensues and then that tiresome prospect of restarting our effort.

While stopping to take a break is surely necessary, at the very least for sleep, it’s important to break things off at a high note, not when faced with a fresh obstacle.  The two often coincide: breakthroughs are met with the next problem, and it’s for this reason it’s good to plan out possible stopping points of success instead of conceding to obstacles.  

The way through is best carved with a consistent force.

BLATANT DISHONESTY

October 9th, 2020

Moods and trends come and go within culture.  Periods of hysteria appear to be cyclic across generations.  In the late 40’s and 50’s the United States was engulfed by a zeal known as McCarthyism to root out communists, and today supporters of communist thinking are some of the biggest proponents of cancel culture - a modern incarnation of a similar hysteria.  And 300 years before that the Salem Witch trials occurred due to a hysteria over people who were thought to be witches.

It’s clear the human mind, especially within a group can be host to some bizarre and nonsensical processes of thought.  Concepts can begin to seem like their opposite.  In a world of greed, corruption can begin to seem like a virtue, because it’s the way to move up in the world.

In a period of culture when concepts are turns upside down and sewn to their opposites, authenticity begins to shine among the inauthentic - which is to say, we start accepting contradictions as a way to view reality.  When this happens, we become vulnerable in ways that are completely at the whim and will of those who foster no qualms about using the channels of those contractions.

One example is when an individual is upfront and honest about how dishonest they can be.  While this is not and should not be respectable, the admission gains respect because it masquerades as a form of authenticity.  It’s a persona that say, don’t trust me, I’ll turn on you, but when it’s conveyed with confidence and self-assuredness, it becomes intoxicating - not because of the facts at hand and their real world consequences, but simply because confidence and shows of self-assuredness are intoxicating.  It’s as if you hand a child who has just learned to read the most beautiful chocolate cake you could ever imagine with icing on top arranged in an exquisite script that says ‘poison’.  

A strong and confident public commitment to dishonesty is a bit like email spam. Those emails are written poorly -by design- in order to filter out those who aren’t gullible and filter towards the most vulnerable, who can then be taken advantage of with efficient ease.  The strategy works, there are people, indeed perhaps sadly most, who don’t pause to think through the components of a situation, but simply follow blindly the whimsical direction of the emotions they feel.

It’s a mindful act of rebellion to question one’s own feelings on a subject, to challenge them and question deeply whether those feelings are helpful, meaningful, useful, and ultimately, valid.

Is it then any surprise that dishonesty can run so rampant and in the open during a time when every last feeling is prized, coveted and upheld like some sort of divine message?

The better angels of our nature show up, not when we are somehow in tune with the world, but when we constantly challenge the tune of our own hearts, tuning our own being with the tension between feeling and thoughtful consideration.

INTERPRETATION VS. MEANING

October 8th, 2020

The border between interpretation and meaning is non-existent because one is mistaken for the other.  An event occurs and it’s meaning seems obvious to the individual, but status of meaning has been transposed with a personal interpretation.

The word interpretation comes from translate, explain.  Our interpretation is our attempt to explain what we see, it’s an attempt to find meaning.  Certainly some interpretations are also the meaning, but this is not necessarily the case, and yet we behave as though it is always the case.  Some odd mutation of free speech has recently crept into the validity of perspective.  This is reflected by new uses of words, like truth.  Instead of truth or truths that are valid between and across all perspectives, there is now my truth and your truth. These aren’t truths of course, but perspectives, they are interpretations of reality.  Meaning and truth exist on an entirely different level - or at least they did.  But for what reason?

If truth and meaning collapse down to join the more common concepts of perspective, opinion and interpretation, then conversation as a whole loses something valuable.  With any evolving entity, there is growth, and there is a paring back.  Species may explode in numbers upon the discovery of a new resource, and then the herd is culled by other forces like new predators or environmental changes.  The ones that survive mark a small step in that evolution.

We can apply the same situation to meaning and truth within our conversation.  Meaning and Truth are the entities of sense-making that are supposed to endure across generations, first and foremost for our benefit.  If we can establish best practices for the largest possible set of circumstances, then our chances of enduring are higher.   But with the bloat of valid perspectives growing to overtake the status of truth and meaning as shared among many, then our ability to make proper sense of things grows lumbersome and clumsy.  Our ability to make sense of new circumstances becomes weak because we can no longer winnow down our many interpretations to something meaningful, something that might embody the truth of the situation, something that can help the greatest number of people because it’s valid across individual situations.

One interpretation of this issue hinges on the idea that we don’t control language, but that it controls us.  Just wonder for a moment: can you willingly create a new word and get it adopted by everyone else with absolute certainty?  Absolutely not.  Such things happen by accident.  It’s the same as asking if you can create a viral meme at will - it’s just not possible.  It’s as though something other than ourselves is asking what shall propagate meaningfully across our many minds.  Perhaps language is it’s own entity, and human minds are its host, and language is bloating into a hysterical and nonsensical form in order to thin our herd.  Viruses evolve by killing off huge swathes of their hosts, and in turn the virus grows stronger by competing with the immune systems of the survivors.  This sort of arms race happens everywhere in nature, all the time, why would we be safeguarded from the wandering vicissitudes of evolution?  Who says that evolution is relegated only to organisms?  Certainly ideas and language bloat and compete and winnow and die against one another just as organisms do.  Perhaps the relationship goes beyond that and a symbiotic relationship between words and people creates sticky feedback loops where not all make it through the filter of evolution?  Perhaps it’s not so much that you can’t teach an old dog new tricks as it is the trick evolves and tricks the dog.

A CONFLUENCE OF HABIT

October 7th, 2020

Many of the habits that we wish to incorporate are in fact a small network of habits, and our chances of success rise as we break off pieces of this network and build a habit in parts.  A meditation practice works as a very simple example. 

Anyone with no experience in meditation has the sense that this is a practice of the mind, it has something to do with stillness and some sort of control over the frenetic hodgepodge of thoughts that inundate our waking lives.  But before anyone starts a formal session of meditation, something else has to occur: sitting still.

What coasts right over the heads of everyone talking about meditation as a habit is that we first do something with the body.  While meditation can become an integrated part of a person’s life, regardless of sitting, position or movement, when starting and when in formal practice, there’s an enormous benefit to keeping the body still.  In simplest form, the explanation is that there’s just less to keep track of.

It runs to reason that individuals who attempt to begin a meditation practice are actually trying to pull off two tricks at once: there is the habit we hope to create for the mind, and then there is the habit of sitting still, which is so obvious, few if any seem to comment on it.

It stands further to reason that these two habits can be cleaved to leave one for a later date while the first gets properly installed.  The natural order here is to create a habit of the body before tackling the habit that has to do with the mind.

How does this look in practice?  Say, for instance, the first target habit is to sit for 10 minutes, everyday, with good posture, and perhaps to help aid this, a podcast is thrown on, or some music, or maybe even a video.  Then, after a few weeks, once the body has found it’s groove and the sitting posture is actually enjoyable as opposed to being just another thing to think about, then the exercise of meditation is introduced.

What’s the point of breaking up a habit into smaller bits like this? Why not just dive in head and toe at the same time? 

Breaking up a habit into consistent parts decreases the barrier to entry, it reduces the friction and makes it more likely that we can succeed in the longterm.  Instead of: this is so hard, I have so many thoughts, and my back hurts, and I’m just uncomfortable, it becomes, well, I sit in this posture every morning anyway, might as well start figuring out what it means to meditate since I’ve already got this nailed.

This might seem inefficient, but over the long run it can be far more efficient than a dozen failed starts.  It can also relieve some pressure about what it means to practice: it can be good enough to just sit, because just sitting can peacefully lead to a practice without the large foreboding that always accompanies a bigger task.  Much procrastination and motivation simply boils down to being unable to start because the task is too big, too complex.  Being unable to start is simply a euphemism for not knowing where to start.  Once we’ve found the thin edge of the wedge, it’s always much easier to move forward to the next piece.  Breaking up habits, as with sitting and mental practice for a full-fledged meditation practice can make the process of forming that habit a bit simpler.